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Bronwen Fraser and Marcie Winstanley interview Meg Rosoff

1 Jun

Q. The end of ‘What I Was’ was very powerful because the main character seems to be old and about to die. We read that you are an atheist so we were wondering what your views on life after death are?

A. Well, I don’t believe in it – that’s kind of a fairly short view. But the thing is, I was brought up Jewish but I am an atheist. But even in the Jewish religion there isn’t a whole lot of emphasis on the afterlife…and it’s like one of those things where you don’t expect very much and then when anything happens you get a great bonus. So if there is an afterlife, if there is a gateway to heaven, I’ll be really, really happy. But I’m not counting on it. How about that?

MW: Yes, I think that everybody should believe what they want to believe, and there’s nothing really wrong with any belief.

MR: Yes, I completely agree with that. And…[the man] who wrote ‘The God Delusion’, Richard Dawkins, who sold a billion billion copies…[whose] whole thing is…there is no God…[well] I just find that [viewpoint]…really uninteresting, in a way, because OK, if there is no God, why is it that, say, six billion out of seven billion people on earth all believe in something…? So to me the more interesting question is, what is it about us that we are driven to believe?

Q. Which of your books are you most proud of, and why are you most proud of it?

A. Oh my God. Which of my works am I most proud of? Hmm. You know, it’s a bit like saying, which of your children are you most proud of? (I only have one child, so it’s pretty straightforward.) But in a way the first one, ‘How I Live Now’, because it’s what got me writing and so it started my career in a way. But I often say that ‘How I Live Now’ is like the child who you don’t have to worry about because it’s popular. Everybody likes ‘How I Live Now’, it goes out in the world, you don’t have to think, oh God, what if nobody likes it – you know? So in some ways, although I’m proud that I finally at the age of 46 wrote a novel, [I don’t know about]… most proud of. You know, no one’s ever asked me that question before. It’s a very interesting question. ….‘There Is No Dog’…was definitely the hardest one to write. It really was difficult and it took me a very long time and it was very complicated and for a long time I didn’t think I was ever going to be able to make it work. So in a way I feel like I’ve survived that book, in a way that I didn’t feel about any of the others. And ‘Just in Case’ was quite difficult too but not as hard as ‘There Is No Dog’. Most proud? I mean, the one I like the best…I think personally might be ‘What I Was’.

MW: Yes, that was a really good book.

BF: I really enjoyed it.

MR: Well, I’m glad you liked that. That’s really interesting to hear, because I always think that it’s more of an adult book in a way, than a kid’s book…It’s very complicated, emotionally, and…if you’d asked me, I would have said, ‘no no, you’re much too young.’ So you’re obviously both very sophisticated young readers.

MW: Well I actually read it in Year 8, when I was 13, because we had to do a book challenge, and I found it in the school library. It was in the Year 8 Only section for the more sophisticated teenage books, and … I really liked it…I read the blurb and I thought it sounded really good, and my teacher said that she thought it was good as well, so I decided to read it for the book challenge. And yes, I thought it was a very kind of mature topic…that young children wouldn’t be able to…read, exactly, but…I really, really enjoyed it.

MR: I’m really, really glad to hear that.

BF: Well, I think it’s definitely one of the best books I’ve read in quite a long while, because…it really vividly described all the settings, and I really liked how there are the descriptions of the sea, because it really reminded me of …….a cottage in Scotland that we often go to…The sort of peaceful atmosphere of the hut reminded me quite a lot of our cottage in Scotland, and I really enjoyed reading it.

MR: I spend a lot of time in a little tiny house on the sea in Suffolk, and I wrote a lot of the book actually sitting there with the howling wind and the waves and all that. And I …think sometimes when you feel something really deeply, it communicates itself really deeply to the reader. And so I’m glad to hear that because that’s kind of how I felt, really. And … it’s the most personal, I think, of all my books, I guess. I’m really glad to hear it, because I mean, I sort of give it up, and actually sometimes some kids want to buy it [and] I say, hmmm, you know, I think you should be 14, 15 at the minimum before you even try it. So good for you. You’ve restored my faith!

Q. Do you create your characters and settings out of your imagination, or are any of them inspired by real people or places?

A. I would say the answer to that is both. So they’re all inspired [by real people or places]. …You can always write from what’s in your head in a way. So even if you’re writing pure fantasy, you’re still writing about people. So for instance, I think I’m quite an outgoing, twisted person in some ways and for some bizarre reason I’ve always attracted really pure souls…as friends, and my husband is a real pure soul. He would never lie; he can’t. He can’t even lie about ‘sorry, I can’t come to dinner on Thursday.’ I say, ‘OK, just tell them that we’ve got, you know, we’re already … we have to … you know’. And he says, ‘Just tell them the truth’…[and]….I say, ‘What, we don’t feel like it?’ So…those characters, those pure characters, show up in all my books. Like Peter in ‘Just in Case’; Edmund in ‘How I Live Now’….[and] Estelle, maybe, in ‘There Is No Dog’.

MW: I thought Lucy was quite a kind of gentle character.

MR: Yes, Lucy was a very gentle character.

MW: Yes, she’s kind of quite innocent.

MR: She’s very innocent, which is different to pure, but yes, absolutely….But…[the characters] are never my husband, you know, or….my best friend, who’s also like that. They’re all sort of versions with a little bit of that and then a whole character out of my imagination as well. So [the answer is] both, really. I tried, because I was fired a lot when I worked in advertising, …using some of the horrible people who fired me as villains in my books and it just didn’t work. It’s just because they’re too much like reality – and I wanted them to be completely recognisable so they would recognise themselves and say, ‘Oh my god, I’m a horrible villain’ but A: I don’t really have horrible villains and B: it didn’t really work. ..…I always think fiction – the world of fiction – and the world of reality run right next to each other. It’s like they share a border. But….I can’t really cross too much reality into the fiction.

Q. How old were you when you first started creative writing, and what was the first story you wrote – but I think that was ‘How I Live Now’, wasn’t it?

A. … I wrote a lot when I was a kid – little, like seven – and then … it somehow got … educated out of me.

MW: That’s a shame.

MR: It’s a real shame, yes, but it’s because I was reading so many books and I kept thinking, ‘I can’t – I’ll never be as good as this.’

LB: I think it happens a lot.

MR: I think it does happen a lot. I really lost my nerve. And also, I never met a writer. You know, in my generation, you just didn’t meet a writer. So I thought they were like magical unicorns, and…I could never be one of those people because I didn’t have the golden glow, or whatever it was. So the very first novel I wrote was a horse book, a pony book, that I wrote a year before I wrote ‘How I Live Now’, and I used that pony book to get an agent. And it was a mess of a book. Every so often I go back to it and think, ‘yes, I’m gonna publish the pony book.’ [The agent] turned it down because it was sort of too dark and had too much sex in it and … it sort of told me that even though I’d said I’d write something really simple, what’s in your head will come out on the page. So even when I tried to write a pony book, it turned out kinda dark. I know … it’s like really fancy writing. ……like…was it ‘My Secret Unicorn’?

BF: Yes, I used to love those when I was little.

MR: Oh, my daughter loved them!

LB: People go through the whole series; there’s like, fifty of them!

MR: Yes, [my daughter] used to go out at night and recite – wasn’t there an incantation: ‘make my little foal forlorn turn into a unicorn’ or something?

BF: Something like that, yes.

MR: She used to stand there like this (demonstrates and laughs) – sweet!

LB: So did you just stop writing altogether?

MR: Pretty much … I mean, I wasn’t writing stories, I wasn’t even writing articles much for newspapers. I wrote a couple, but … no, I just thought I couldn’t do it. It’s pathetic, but … you guys think you can do it, though?

Meg Rosoff appeared at the Queen’s Hall, Hexham at 10.30am and 1.30pm, Monday 30th April as part of the 2012 Hexham Book Festival.

Bronwen Fraser reviews Meg Rosoff’s ‘What I Was’

24 Apr

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Set in 1962 on the coast of East Anglia, ‘What I Was’ is told in the voice of Hilary, a sixteen-year-old schoolboy, as he arrives at a grim, gloomy boarding school called St Oswald’s. Hilary dislikes study and sport, teachers and pupils, and finds school life unbearable. But one day he meets Finn, a mysterious boy who lives alone in a fisherman’s hut on a small island. Drawn to Finn and his simple, nomadic way of life, Hilary builds a remarkable relationship.

This is a very compelling and mysterious read, even though there is not a great deal of action. But the setting and characters are so vivid, and you get to know them as the book progresses. The book draws you right into the atmosphere of the seaside setting, the subtle way the relationship develops between the two main characters and the secrecy in which they have to meet. I loved the descriptions of the fisherman’s hut and the constantly changing sea, which is like a strong force and atmospheric presence. It is a fascinating and thought-provoking read and has a very moving ending. I would highly recommend it to both boys and girls aged 12+.

Meg Rosoff is appearing at the Queen’s Hall, Hexham at 10.30am and 1.30pm, Monday 30th April as part of the 2012 Hexham Book Festival. She will also be running a workshop on ‘Finding a Voice’ at the Beaumont Hotel from 10am – 12 noon, Tuesday 1st May. Tickets for both events are available from the Hexham Book Festival website.